Today was Jen's birthday. It feels kind of like an end. The second time we went out I had mentioned that I had gotten The Chronicles of Narnia on DVD from the library. When it was out in the theatre I was too busy writing my thesis to go see it. She replied that that was one of her favorite movies ever. A few times over the summer when we had nothing else to do we just cuddled on her bed and watched it. The first time I mentioned seeing a complete edition of all the Narnia books in one volume, and she squealed with joy. At the time I was an unemployed recent graduate, so I had to be frugal on presents. But I made a note to get it for her for her birthday. Now I'm employed, and so I did. And that was the last bit of "unfinished business" from our relationship. Well, except the trips to Chicago and Disney World. But those will never happen.
She's found someone else. It hurts, but she seems to be happy. And I can't help feeling happy for her. But now that brief, wonderful period of my life is officially over. I don't think I'll ever enter Narnia again.
I got a call about another possible job today. Completely unexpected. So now there are even more options. I know I will regret it, but right now I just want to be anywhere far away from here.